I Just Had the Strangest Morning...

I don't know how and I don't know why, but when I woke up at 10:00 this morning, I decided to make today a very good day for myself by doing a series of activities that I never, ever do without being hassled and pushed to do, which usually involves me whining and complaining, but still doing what I was asked. I got up and decided to start a diet because for a few years now, I felt that I was overweight. I'm 5'8" and I weigh 140 lbs. which is supposedly a healthy weight for my height. Frankly, I'm not convinced it's healthy because I'm a little bit more "filled out" in places I would rather not be. I concocted a workout plan for myself to do daily and a list of foods that I can and cannot eat. I'm figuring that if I make myself look better than I do now and much healthier, my fragile self-esteem will get an extra boost, too. I had a nonfat yogurt and an orange for breakfast to replace the usual bacon and eggs with pancakes and I baked a couple douzen cookies to practice resisting the urge to be a pig and stuff my face. It was a good idea I think because now my mom is in a good mood because my cookies are amazing hehe! To add to the weirdness, I grabbed a Swiffer duster and danced around the house dusting everything in sight. That's also a pretty good thing because now the house is clean and my parents have a clean house and cookies. I think they're just glad that I made myself useful. I think all the pain and depression from last night made a change in me. Hopefully this will last because it feels so good to clean and bake and organize and make plans to make my life so much better. If he wants to ignore me, that's fine, but I won't let this bother me. I'll just continue my extremely strange morning in peace and enjoy the feeling while it lasts.