Finally, I Know What I Really Want

As a typical junior in highschool, the time has come for me to think about what I want to do with the rest of my life. It's such a big step, hopefully not too big for me to handle. I want to be so many things, I have so many interests and things that make me happy, but I just don't want to make a mistake in judgement and spend my life doing something that I don't enjoy. I know that a lot of people change their majors in college and some become something they didn't expect or want to become, but I really don't want to go through this in the dark. I want to be absolutely sure. I hate not knowing what is going to happen. The one thing that I think I could spend the rest of my life doing is writing. I would write all day and all night, if i chose to. I could write about anything I wanted and just let my thoughts and emotions and feelings and everything that my mind contains flow out and synchronize on paper (or on screen. Typing is probably a smart choice.). It feels so free when I write, so easy and effortless. I don't know if I'm a good writer or not, but I don't care. I probably should care, since one day the sales of my books will support me, but I just don't right now. Maybe someday, I will live in a beautiful house on the shores of the Pacific, sit down in a quiet place in front of a big window that takes up an entire wall so I can gaze at the waves crashing on the beach, and write. Write anything. Write everything. It will be fantastic. You may think it's foolish to dream of this kind of life, but right now, a dream is exactly what I need to get away from this nightmare. My life after college is something that no one can forsee, but I just hope that I make the right decision in being a writer. Let's just hope I have more talents up my sleeve if that dream never becomes a reality.