Big Plans

Today I attended my first college visit, and let me tell you, it was busy! Hundreds of perspective students were there, crowding every corner of the university. The open house was at Southern Connecticut State University, or SCSU. I liked it a lot, but it was a little bit small. It supposedly has 12,000 students, but most of them commute I'm sure. I don't want to sound rude, I really don't, but it seemed to me that the kinds of students that go to the school are at much lower standards of learning than me. They seemed nice, really they did, and I saw a few people that I knew, but I know it's simply not the right school for me. My top choice is UConn, but that's a difficult school to get into. My SAT scores are very good so I have a good chance of getting in, but it won't be easy otherwise. I plan to major as an English teacher and minor in French, but the UConn education program is very selective.

All I know for sure about all this college stuff is that it's going to take me forever. I know I've learned one thing from it all, and that's to just get it done. If I leave all of these things until the very last minute, I probably won't get into the colleges I want. I need to make a decision on what I want to do with my life and stick with it. If you don't take control of your life, you're not going to get anywhere. No one is going to hold your hand or do it all for you. It's not going to happen on it's own. It's an unfortunate truth of life that I'm slowly starting to learn, but that's what being an adult is all about. I'm 18 now, I have responsibilities. I have to learn to take care of myself, and it's honestly a bit scary. I'm going to college, and I don't know what's going to happen. What if I fail? What if I can't handle it? What if I don't want to grow up? :(